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i know the band name.

i wrote this during insomnia

thought it was better until revisted
when i was born

i could not sleep

and so my mom

would sing to me

she sings of trouble

she sings of fear

but sang them softly

sang them with tears

when i was young
i couldn't sleep
i asked my love
to sing for me

he speaks in key
as he goes
a lullaby
of totem poles

and as his words slipped to nonsense
i felt myself moreso content
a place we' share
at least this evening

we laugh

a place of shamans
a place of heat
of medicine men
and indian chiefs.

w song (light sensitive melody?)

what a vice that we've found in this bed
such a way to distract from our heads
and by licking up prescription meds
we are set we are set we are set

we are too mild to take all 4 rounds
with a sigh i'm sure we'll hold our ground
when it comes to the battle royal
no matter it all goes to charity

prelude to P-L-A-N-S (Ramparts)

i know all your thoughts
in the same way that you read my mind
that all turned to rot
when believing became so unkind

now that i have been taught
that there's no sense in giving it time
i'd rather not talk
than be a child just speaking in rhyme

i've been skipping rope
with some girls who have claimed you're 'the one'
we start to count letters it
started out all in good fun

and i swear on my life
that i landed on "_" more than once
they became hot headed
then left me alone in the sun

you read that i checked in the middle of box y and n
and i know that you asked me to go to the dance as 'just friends'
please don't doubt when i say that's better to fuss than pretend
still you'll thank me later when girls start to ruin your plans

ye you'll thank me later when girls start to ruin your plans

spat await titty ho

stuck in a wave
and prepared to drift
away from the birds
that offer their gifts

a trigger goes off
when you lye and soak free
a mind that has lost
its flare to the sea

the stick that you use
to beat your blood with
is now just a tool
that won't unlock shit

the formal attire
you wore to show off
has been torn by the tires
of your former loves

"and you'll go away forever if leaving gives you time to find out what to sever and to seek out what to hide
for worse or for better you'll still have her by your side, cause she's your kind..."

cigarette cross box

know that i'm keeping
a terrible secret
and know that i'm lonely
but you're all Ive got

beware of the traps
that i've set out to prove
that i am unholy
i want to be caught

a golden machine has
made me stay still when
i should be climbing
about foreignhills

this thing will not beat
will never store love
it only bares labour
below so above

criss cross

the offering of labled skin
was layed upon the alter when
a young boy spoke
upon his cloak
was shiny bits
of partial knits
that used to play
an awful game
upon the sun
with stolen guns
that held a film
of Mexicans an
other men til
it had losts its lust for life
the sacrifice
of all your sins
behold the rinse
of bloody bread
to chew or spread
a salty creed
that used to breed

all things

( joe tex - i want to la la la la la )

why would i love you when you're sick?
we both know that you're contagious.
why would i feel weak when i'm strong?
why would i right the one who wronged?

cris cross vermont (one)

Jeux D'enfants

i'm not ready for a child
you are bored, naive, and lost
i can't give to you my heart
since you've betrayed my old trust

it will come to you with age
soon you'll understand my ________
and give up on all your hope
then let go of all your games
& i'm not ready for a child
you are not the one i see
being ready to give up
the way i used to be

but you're still the dearest fawn
in my world you are the sun
unfortunately it's not dawn
it's too bad that you're too young.

homeward bound

lonely town

(cursive) "The Jay Jay Special"

as written at, from what i remember, Rosemarys?

bowtie pasta fafale  farfelle.
one frozen peas
white mushrooms
canadian bacon
spicy italian sausage
(sweet)
garlic
oregano
s&p

heavy cream
parmesan cheese
garnish - paprika parsley
__________________________________________
medium high heat
for sauce

3 tbsb olive oil
5 cloves garlic (sm) chopp saute
throw in mushrooms, peas, bacon,
sautee until tender (mushrooms white to brown)
ad s&p & oregano and sausage
when sausage is pink a 3 min. done
throw in heavy cream just enough to cover almost eveyrhing (about a cup see top of everything)
cook down for 1 min.
add 1/2 cup parm cheese
cook to desired thickness
about 1 1/2 2 mins

next page
Cook pasta

throw in desired pasta
Toss
Turn off heat
let rest for 3 min

Plate
Garnish parsley & paprika

with any italian meal
drizzle with olive oil
but you hanel? over.

words i hate saying in a poem

i want to smell like a girl
they always walk by me
i want to have the scent of
pure virginial ectasy

morning after prev post.

you can't have the best just because you complain.
or something like that.

mos def at london souls cup night

md alright ok


i have pulled this out
[cause i am afraid
that if i do not
i will grow bigger and
i will have to take care
of a poor little babe
that has nothing but me
that has nthing thats made
so i ask for your help
how to cook for the _______
how to lean before craving
how to try and give back
but i come from a time
not of fire & stone
yes i come from a time
where she goes it alone
and fucks for her come
and sings for her sum
where everything's easy
and slow and real numb


i come from a time
where all is not greene
except for the one
except for us 3
(diagnol)
that's when i stop writing things



"kids and things"

the will and the able (not this one below)

i'll leave this behind
just for you to stare at
i'll go out alone
and leave you believe that
theres something that i
something that i am hiding
will ____ just as bland as

under ny address listo

who's in the back
much nicer than expected
painted on, painted on

my hands are too old for my age

who sticks it out?
soon you'll be dead.
just look at my hands
i've not much time left
i wish i could tell you
that i worked hard for them
i wish i could need to
and say what i meant

but i've never wanted anything less from you
and i've never wanted what was best for you
i'd rather stay alone all day locked in too soon

napkins at the cup

i guess you could be an actress

pageants

the times that i know i will win or lose

for sure, either way

are the times i can allow myself to go

and try to fufil that

i need to do things without knowing

you're included in that

and that is what makes life 

or in this case. my love.

Prelude to "P-L-A-N-S" (ramparts)

i know all your thoughts

in the same way that you know all mine

thats what was thought

when i believed just thinking was fine

but i now have been taught

that believing in thought is no good

because once hearts are bought

thoughts do not behave the way they should

and i've been jumping ropes

with some girls who claim "you're the one"

we began counting letters

it started out all in great fun

and i swear on my life

that i landed on "_" more than once ( a whole ton)

they became so jealous

they left me alone in the sun

well you know that i checked

in the middle of box Y and N

cause i told you my story about what L did to my head

and even though you asked me to go as "just friends"

you'll thank me later when girls start to ruin your plans.

ram parts

when it's not like the others
it feels so clean
ramparts lay slain
when it's under the covers
it's the same machine
ramparts lay slain

hold on tight to something
we can't obtain on our own
let alone together
alone together

when the blood leaves the ceiling
hit the floor
ask for twenty
ramparts to slay
when the door is unlocked
and a line starts to form
ask how many
ramparts i've slain

ask before just ask before
it hits the floor

i stole a tile a little while
out of your best friend's hands
and you won't wait can't fight them off
forever but that's the plan

that's what happens when she comes
that's what happens when you go?
that's what happens when we let the two of you alone
i know you can't fight them off forever
but that's the
p-l-a-n

GRM

(-.53 "Stay With Me" - The Faces)

guitar riff melody.

SODA

SODA CRACKER

CRACKER JACK

JACK OFF

OFF LIGHT

LIGHT SABER

SABER TOOTH

TOOTH FAIRY

FAIRY TALE

TALE TEL

TEL A PHONE

PHONE BOOK

BOOK CLUB

CLUB SODA

SODA POP

POP STAR

STAR NIGHT

NIGHT LIFE

LIFE TIME

TIME TABLE

TABLE TOP

TOP DOWN

DOWN SOUTH

SOUTH ITALIAN

ITALIAN SODA

NEW FRAME/ NEW NAME "Veronica" and Andrew

when i grow up i want to ride my bike for money

until my limbs refuse to work that way

and by that year i will have enough money

to lay outside and watch my children play

they'll ask me why i never want to join in

i'll tell him that my legs refuse my head

they'll ask me why i won't replace my joints then

and i'll say "what was left was spent on them instead."

Spelling song at the cabin

light sensitive beings

are a sight for sore bodies of

watery wives

tales matching feathers

for worse or for better

i'll stay by your side

feel relieved, it's all so bright

let's conceive, into the night

quite sensitive meetings

for holding in fluid

and auctioning hides

tails matching leather

if you're not a bidder

i'll trade yours for mine

feel relieved, they're not so bright

your disbelief, form the right lines

" and i'll stay away forever if me leaving gives you time

to find out what to sever

and to seek out what's to hide

but no matter when we meet again

you'll still have what was mine

cause you're my kind

and you're my kind.

Notes to look up.

Lars Von Trier (Dancer In The Dark)

"Antichrist"

"Element of Crime"

"Manderlay"

Don't Miss The Marc.

marcjacobs.com (cheap line)

"Coco before Chanel" (Book?)

"I don't know, generic hipster?" - Alexa Chung NYLON SEP 2009

"Invented rock music, wrote all of Nirvana's songs..." - Rolling Stone on Courtney Love RS 1087 Sept 17th, 2009

Ginger Baker.

"Cypress Hills Massacre"

and a green book from a tour gas station says

i wouldn't mind getting out of here
to a room with no windows at all
and you say 'you sure love to be loved'
i do like it, you're right about me

you can't wait to get me out of here
to drink the one handed to you
and its lonely when you tell the truth
but i prefer it, you know about me

i won't cause you much trouble this time
still don't take it easy on me
cause easy's the thing that i've been
and well you know what they say about good things

such a subtle stage that we're on
she asked what you now ask of me
and at the time it seemed like a strange thing
still we both don't care much for the theatre

and i've travelled without any weight
my limbs were not put to a scale
but instead like the times we have lept
i'd now rather be useful without you

in a composition book i find and don't remember at all...

a reply to no year
lay your love
everyplace is home
offer the stars
to a powerful man
offer him everythings
stand and wait
here she is
the one who holds conversation
stand and ask
wait it out
humanistic congregation

it aint gonna help

so don't bother
they tight
just getting tighter
go to bed
even if its not wanted
your body
is just a saucer
waiting to get
dim
by
that
body
by that party that you missed
erase this later
calm down
calm down
baby resist

rands

nice girls shouldn't make a fuss

tspirate

every one for every two
less true, my blue eyed saint
i will let you be a screen
and what a fall i've suffered
silly ass youngin

cig pack

the words will be forgotten by the morning
and the stains on my sides dissappear
and all the terms we came through consolation
are gone right out of here

so forgive me sun the moonlight makes me give myself away

i know i told you this in daylight
but you could not read my mind since i just shake
so when i confessed it in the dark night
it was cheapened by the lack of lights and shape

forgive me sun the moonlight makes me give myself away


(edit:stole)

ram parts

when it's not like the others
it feels so clean
ramparts lay slain
when it's under the covers
it's the same machine
ramparts lay slain

hold on tight to something
we can't obtain on our own
let alone together
alone together

when the blood leaves the ceiling
hit the floor
ask for twenty
ramparts to slay
when the door is unlocked
and a line starts to form
ask how many
ramparts i've slain

ask before just ask before
it hits the floor

i stole a tile a little while
out of your best friend's hands
and you won't wait can't fight them off
forever but that's the plan

that's what happens when she comes
that's what happens when you go?
that's what happens when we let the two of you alone
i know you can't fight them off forever
but that's the
p-l-a-n

Michael and Chris and Michael. Banting Song

michael walks with me
his legs are twice the size of mine
a leap to match his stride
and brush my thighs

what can you ask for?
lonely variety store
a crippled walk back now
lost time to make up more

Bonnie lit fires
her husband hides the leaves
i'd look up and balance
on left to right beams

dad's in the courthouse
mills stole our wealth
docked pave raybeams
ghost mourning our health

michael walks with me
twice my length
twice my age
soon i'll grow tall and he'll feel see the same way
soon i'll grow tall and he'll see it my way

alphaboro

you're entering the borough of alpha
and i put miles before you could
a new terrain that bears adelpha
she's hiding and she's up to no good

that princess drop wave shame parade

adelpha you're so far to find
a well behaved woman she rarely will try
but you're a rare child
you're a rare child

adelpha make them form a line
a well behaved woman she rarely will try
but you're a rare child
you're a rare child

that princess drop wave shame parade

when you are stuck in a bus in the dark it's hard to see

smile at the disheveled girl
still fits perfect
tell me a look
little angel woman
i'll find it

same words
you tell and misplace
i am a stranger
and will take it
evertime, please.
again.
that voice.

i will vote for your party if it is the thing to do.

never wanted inside a mind
you look, i shake
what kind of space you
occupy

revolving around you
and my eyes
look to take your head
what is in there?
so many beaming light forces
i know
i just want to look them to non words
knowing.

i have a doubt
but it faded once i
wrote it out
out of sight.